This is what used to happen. I hated it, actually. Now, I just recall these moments with calmness. What a waste of time and energy. Had I known anything would happen, I never would have turned around, nor lost my control. For now, I think I will keep alert, awake and appreciative.

No more thoughts. I just have to keep drinking. Drinking. Drinking. Drinking. Drinking. Drinking. Until....I sleep.

high-*-dry