iron lung--*--optimistic--*--black star--*-- nice dream
bum
12:47 a.m.--*--2005-08-10
midnight whiskey

The mountains were exquisite. Paddling on a canoe nearly at midnight, while stars splurged across the sky was the most vivid, deatiled description of a beautiful, ultimate summer sky. I can do it again, for the rest of my life.I want to be there.
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Sometimes the fear kicks in, but I know that it is mental, not reality. Fear is nothing.
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In need of more whiskey. Refill coming up. Mmmm. Where are you? I know you are there, I have seen you in my dreams. But, where?
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Need more to drink.
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You are my love, always. Cannot wait to see you again.